Lord, help me to dream again

American singer-songwriter, rock musician, and multi-instrumentalist / record producer once said, “Dreams are renewable. No matter what our age or condition, there are still untapped possibilities within us and new beauty waiting to be born.”

I used to dream and daydream a lot when I was a kid. I remember keeping a dream dictionary at my bed side to make sure I will remember my dream and know its interpretation. I was very positive about them, especially when they predict positive things.

I often daydream when I go out of town trips. Long trips are my favorites because not only they give me time to think and imagine about my future plans, they relax me as well while listening to my favorite classical and pop songs.

But to be honest, I felt when Rianna, my nine-year-old niece, recently died, our dream and months of positive thinking and keeping the faith of seeing her normal and well again were suddenly gone and wasted. And here comes the reality of life that not everything happens the way we want it to happen.

So what are dreams and positive thinking for if they don’t really happen? Should I stop dreaming and thinking positive?

Why Rianna died after a two-year battle with N-methyl-D-aspartate (NMDA) receptor encephalitis, pneumonia and ovarian cyst remains a mystery to me. Her doctors were very positive about her recovery. No one said she will die.

We were all prepared to look after her as long as it takes, but God has other plans and I’m pretty sure in time, someday, I can say, He has “better” plans. Whatever that is, I still don’t know for now. Only time can tell.

So today, I want to offer a prayer, which I saw from one of my Bible plans, for everyone, who like me, is struggling to dream and believe again.

“Lord, help me today to dream again. Holy Spirit, please remind me of the plans Abba has for my future. Help me Lord to dream again, to dare to dream again. You allowed Rianna to die for a purpose. Please help me understand your Divine plan and help us to get back on our feet. I know she is happy now wherever she is – free from pain and suffering. Help us to remember that everything happens for a purpose. In this I pray, in Jesus’ name, Amen.”

Are you having a hard time dreaming and believing again? Just pray and talk to God. He may not have the answers you needed right now, but I’m sure in time He will and it’ll give you peace of mind.

Trust the process. Keep the faith.

 

 

Published by Mylene Orillo

Mylene Orillo is a contributing writer at the Health & Lifestyle magazine.  Prior to that, she's a former correspondent at The Manila Times; former editor-in-chief of TravelPlus magazine; and former assistant editor of Health & Lifestyle, Zen Health, and DiabetEASE magazines by FAME Publishing, Inc., a company owned by cardiologist Dr. Rafael Castillo who has given her the much-needed break and opportunity in the health industry and medical field.  Her previous job as Media Consultant at the Philippine Charity Sweepstakes Office and Writer-Researcher at the Headquarters Philippine Army ignited her passions for charity, volunteering, selfless service, and love of country. As a young girl, she loved reading her mom's collection of Mills & Boons pocketbooks, which started her passion to write romance stories.  She has a Bachelor of Arts degree in Journalism from the University of Sto. Tomas in España, Manila. She is now working towards earning her master's degree hopefully this year. She loves traveling, long-distance running, reading romance and non-fiction books, watching Korean Drama series, feel-good rom coms, military movies, and documentaries during her spare time. Someday, she wants to meet Prince William and Pope Francis, settle down with the love of her life and have a family and kids of her own; and become a bestselling romance author.

2 thoughts on “Lord, help me to dream again

  1. Trusting the process is important but it can also be difficult at times, keeping the faith and hope is key. I pray that the Lord lightens your load and heals yours and your family’s hearts. May He grant you peace of mind and continue to strengthen you.

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